Blogging can be so therapeutic sometimes. I wrote this post when I was feeling emotional about something and it really helped. I wasn't sure whether to post it but maybe it will help you if you have been feeling the same way.
For the past two years, a lot went wrong for me - I had a lot of bad news, health issues and seemed to always attract toxic people who made it worse. Over the latter half of last year, I really tried to focus on the positive and start on the right track to a healthier and more positive mind. I know that sounds totally cliche and vom worthy but its true.
Excercise helped when I was feeling low, and sorting out my diet to include lots of healthy clean foods also aided my well being. I read a few self help books, went to some counciling sessions which did the world of good and tried to train my mind to be more positive which was the hardest part. I failed many times, and even sunk lower than I had before but towards the end of last year I was getting the hang of trying to put a positive spin on things.
I got the confidence to cut out negative people, I put more effort into the good and positive people who surrounded me and I made the effort to change jobs when I wasn't happy where I was anymore. Rather than sitting there wallowing which is so tempting to do, I went out and did something about it which made me even more confident and positive. It is a very good cycle which is very hard to build. I also found that quotes really helped too. Again that sounds so Pinterest and cliche but whenever I was feeling low, I could always find a quote that really fitted how I felt and gave me a boost or push to change it.
I guess why I'm writing this all down is because after looking back at the past two years and how far I've come I feel so so proud of myself and I think that positivity and strength is starting to shine through and I;m getting back to me. Unfortunately there seem to be a a few people left in my life who don't seem to like this, maybe its because when someone is worse off than you it makes you feel better but that is such a toxic way to look at things.
I'm not going to lie - I used to feel like that sometimes too but honestly, praising someone for doing well or giving the tiniest of compliments really makes you feel so much better than being bitter about someone else's success. There will always be people who are better at other things than me in so many ways and those who are not but at the end of the day it is only myself who I can compete with.
Now I've finally had the epiphany and I've felt my mindset change, I can finally let myself enjoy my successes and not doubt myself or worry about whether or not I deserve it.
If you have tried your best and you work hard and you are kind and positive you are winning already and I hope no one ever makes you doubt that xxx